aside from government stipends and feigned pre-existing conditions which, as i got older galvanized into actual pre-existing conditions, helping my family as best i can, being ugly enough for marriage to not be such a prevalent issue and cooch never thrown at me to the point where it was a distraction… i would have to say partial/lack of employment and having to find side loaded ways to get the things that you want, adjusting the luxuries that you desire in life… is an exercise in personal growth. thusly i don’t miss the “new york state of mind” where the apartments are dirty and overpriced and everybody thinks they are on a catwalk when they walk those dirty, immiscible, grey concrete streets. in the suburban lower middle class suburbs, i’ve found comfort in consumer electronics, which i don’t have the personal funds to overdo it with, even if i desired to. i mean, there’s ebay, gazelle, sometimes even original manufacturers selling open box and new old stock items which, in many cases… if not becoming your favorite device, make the choice of what you attempt to create on, or what you want to create with more countercyclical and makes for more referencing dictionaries and enjoying the attempt to make this ugly language beautiful. America is a horrible litany of paradoxes and lies, but when your up, your up.
getting acquainted with the “less life.”
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